Dear pneylan,

I had to come back and leave this short poem with you all. I found myself sitting alone in the dark, yet again, trying to make some sense of everything, and not finding many answers. I began to think about what the circumstances would be like if it were me that was gone, and my beloved Debbie was the one sitting here, lost, in pain, over the loss of me. What could I possibly say to her? What could I possibly do to ease her pain. Before I realized what I had done, I had jotted down the thoughts I would send to her, and I straightened them up to some degree, just to put them in perspective. Here is the message I would send to my love if the roles were reversed, and I'm sure, the message she would have me hear now.

Don't cry for me because I'm gone.
I'm not far away. You're never alone.
I'm right there with you in spirit and heart.
So hold on to me, we're never apart.

Death did not change my feelings for you.
Our love is still strong, still solid, still true.
But now, for a time, you're there and I'm here,
So let me put  a few thoughts in your ear.

I love you my honey, and I miss you too.
And our time is coming to start all things new.
No troubles or strife will get in our way,
So hold on to our love, and wait for that day.

There are things to be done, by me and by you,
And we'll share eternity when our chores are through.
So remember my honey, my life, my love,
I'm waiting for you. I'm right here above.

I personally don't believe that death separates us. I believe that life on Earth is no more than a short testing ground that prepares us for our life everlasting. We measure our time here in days and weeks not aware that life eternal has no measure, and that once we pass this test of time, our true life begins.  My beloved Debbie managed to learn all that she needed, and passed all of the tests required, to allow her to pass into the next phase of life eternal. I know that she is happy there, and anxiously awaiting my arrival there to be with her again, forever.

Have faith, be strong, and prepare yourself for a life to behold.


Edited by twostepr - 31 Jul 2007 at 4:11pm

well what do i say im new to all this but needed to speak out. Im kayley from cumbria 19yrs old and what an unlucky life i feel i have had. At just 19 i have lost 2 children and on may 30th 2007 just 3 days after my `1st anniversery to my husband michael gilyeat he was killed in afghanistan at the age of 28 and us not having anytime to start the family he longed for so much its all hard to deal with. Now me being left here with no one to turn too suffering from bad depression already and due my 1st child on the 6th of september, what else is there that can go wrong.

Kayley

Dear Kayley

I'm sorry for your loss I really am, I 19 as well lost my boyfriend a week ago. Although I don't know the pain of losing a child, which I am truly sorry as well, The only words I can say to you are the ones that have been told to me since his death is, God Does Everything For A Reason, and everytime I hear this I just want to scream out loud and tell them that they're only sayin that because they don't know the feeling (which I never wish on anyone) but when you get to thinkin and prayin you come to the conclusion that it's true I mean you come up with your own answer to why the reason was but it's true. And as far as havin noone to talk to about your loss and how you feel, you're wrong you have your husband although you can't see or touch him, he is there comforting you, just try listening with your heart and you'll feel him. I feel the exact same way becuase everyone tells me that I'm just 19 and I'm too young to know what love is but where exactly is it written that you have to be a certain age in order to know what love is? But just know this They ( your husband and your 2 children) will be there greeting you with a smile. As will be my beloved Kendell.

Edited by Gricelda - 21 Aug 2007 at 6:10pm